el oh el oh well, I'll live. | Birthday: | September 07 |
| Mood: | happy |
| Location: | Iowa |
| Gender: | female |
| Status: | lanalu is enjoying my birthday :) |
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let's see.....I'm in highschool and homeschooled. (might I add that I love it?) 
I'm a complete music freak, and I'm learning photography (enjoying it a lot!!) I love spending time with my friends and family. And last but not least I love my Lord and want to do and become more for Him!!
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A Tear For A Life
This is a paper I wrote for a writing club recently, and I thought I would share it....
She watched in silence, she watched from her space in the corner where no one noticed her. She watched as everyone in the whole building was having fun, everyone but her.
There was laughter in the air, the buzz of talking over music playing. All eyes sparkled with joy and fun, it was an awesomely happy night for these people, who they hoped it would not end ever.
Her eyes didn’t sparkle, she wished with all her heart the whole painful thing would end, or if it didn’t end she wished she could even disappear into the wall that she held against. No one would remember her, no one would care, they would all go on having a night of their lives.
A flair of laughter like fire rose from the crowd. Like the flame that is was to her it came up and nipped at her face so that she bent her head down clenching her teeth and closed her eyes. She tried to blot out the giggles, the too happy music, but it all seemed to rush at her, threatening her, laughing cruelly at her.
It all mocked her. The music taunted her seemingly two left feet, the conversations were all inside jokes she never would be a part of, the lightheartedness of the crowd would crumble at her clumsiness, the giggles all around laughed at her because they knew she wouldn’t amount to anything.
Then, slowly, a tear, a tear for all she was worth, for all that she had ever wished for, began to form. It welled up in her eyes and then slowly cascaded down her face.
For a moment, it was as if all the noise ceased to her, the tear that held her whole wanting life slid off her cheek and went at a gasping speed crashing to the floor.
With an almost deafening explosion the tear hit the tile floor and shattered. A tear for all the million hurts, loneliness, and hopelessness non of these people could even imagine her having.
She shattered with it, though she cried no more she felt as if she lost her heart and all feeling. Lost herself for good and nothing could regain her to the world.
The people who were all still partying all blurred into a mass of colors before her eyes, the noise too morphed into a loud roar that made no distinct sound.
Her legs seemed to turn to Jell-O as she slid on the wall down to the floor, there she tucked her knees up to her face and hide it there. She felt as if all life had been drained from her.
Just when she thought maybe she was falling out of it something made her look up. Nothing in the drone of the noise changed, but as she slowly lifted her head there seemed to be a figure coming towards her.
If she had any energy she probably would have tried to hide looking like this. But she couldn’t move beyond sinking her head back shamefully to her knees, and there was something about this figure that froze her to her place. However it was not fear, there was something soothing about this person that was overpowering.
The room was still a blur to her, the figure was now right in front of her but she didn’t lift her head. It lingeringly bent down to face her, and as she finally raised her head to see it their eyes met.
His eyes locked hers, not in a glaring way but gentle yet steady gaze, a gaze that seemed to seep into her. All the noise seemed to die away and all she could hear was her own breathing.
Time seemed to freeze as he held out his hand and without even thinking she took it and was suddenly standing as if she had never even been on the floor. His hand was as if it sent life flowing back into her vanes, all the time her eyes never leaving his.
As if a dream and with no words they started dancing. A beautiful dance like no other, not too fast yet not too slow. Made just for her. Though there appeared to be music if you listened there was not, still they were without fault in time with it.
Tears began to flow down her face onto his shoulder where she laid her head. Not tears of sorrow, but tears of great joy that no words can or ever will describe.
Time wasn’t known as they danced, they just danced and danced, each one never missing a step. Always perfectly together.
Then, it was as if he picked her up into the most wonderful hug and with almost as a breathe of wind, he whispered in her ear; “I love you.”
It filled her with happiness and joy untold. A warmth surged all over her like a huge blanket, and she cried and laughed with a love that would never die.
~Lnaa
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rock4god about 1 month agoNot sure how much I will be on tomorrow...So I wanted to wish you a happy birthday! Hope you have a great one! |
music_lover 4 months agoI be fine.....and i was in the same boat as u just a few months ago but i just thought of something i love doing and i love working with kids soooo that is wat im going to do also i prayed ALOT.....i didnt go c Prince Caspian but my brother did with his friend and he said it was better than the 1st soooo maybe i can see it sometime. |
music_lover 4 months agowell i will probly have a little party in the summer with family and im not going to do a hat and gown this year cuz im homeschooled but when i graduate from college i will wear the hat and gown......i dont mind u asking wat i going in2......im going to work with little kids like in a daycare or something like that but i dont want to teach.......soooo do u have any ideas of wat u r going to do when u go to college and how waz ur day?:P |
music_lover 4 months agowell i will pray for u....and im doing fine and nothing really much is going on this week bsides school and work oh and i will b reconize @ church sunday as a 2008 high school grad. sooo i had to give my youth pastor 15 pics of me from when i was a baby up 2 my senior pic and he will show it sunday with all the other grads @ church, and then after church we will have a little party with all the grads and their fams soo it will be fun. |
music_lover 4 months agoHi wats up? :P |
blaze 5 months agonice!!! I did something like that at a camp in middle school. our conductor is good friends w/ all of the other high school conductors and so we get to do alot of stuff w/ the other high school orchestras which is alot of fun! |
rock4god 5 months agoI'm great! How are you? |
blaze 5 months agoim ok, I was in the chamber orchestra which is audition only (Like the top 20 to 30 players get in) and I've played since 6th grade (im a softmore). what about u? |
acey7lovesjesus 5 months agonice to meet you lana |
made2luv 29 days ago
happy birthday yesterday
hope you had a happy happy birthday 