| Birthday: | April 04 |
| Location: | Out of this World |
| Gender: | male |
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I Love Her! (Please Lord let her see)
I hate this! I don't know what to do. It's not her fault I know and I know at times I come off as if I am upset with her. It's just I don't understand it. For example, how can she know me for a year, being in a relationship with her for 8 months out of that year, placing her 2nd to God in life, talking every chance for as long as possible yet still she thinks that in being with each other for a week,especially since the prior things occured long distance think that being together physically (not sexuallly), I will grow bored of being with her. I wish she knew what I feel. I try but words fail me and I get frustrated because of that. It is because I do not know how to get her to understand and I get so frustrated that I can not do anything but show it over time when I wish I could just lay it all out and her instantly know it. It's not about going places, watching movies, money, or anything as such. Being with God and her is all. I know people will say that the following is not true but hey, even God said," is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an help meet for him." (Genesis 2:18 ). She makes me feel complete. Yeah, some probably think it's just a cheesy pick up line or just meaningless words but it's not for me. It is true! I love her! Most people even will probably think "What if she leaves?" I'm not afraid of "what if?" because it's about as silly as the question "What if God doesn't exist?" Plus the person to have had to ask that must have clearly missed the point that "i LOVE her." I have given everything up. What I'm about to do is not twisting or misusing scripture rather I'm using it to make a comparison unto what it is like. The relationship with her is like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls: Who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had, and bought it (Matthew 13:45-46). Why would I not give everything up for her? Giving her my complete trust, loyalty, and faithfulness. Even Christ gave His life as the verse goes "Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;"(Ephesians 5:25). It's not even about me. i could not care less about what I want compared to what she wants. I put her ahead of myself but sometimes it is as if she doesn't see it. I'm not even complaining though. I just wish she could know what I feel. Knowing I'm never going to get tired of her though years go by. I want to be by her side and her by mine. Yes, it is what I want but only if it is what she wants will it happen. I can't force her to nor would I even try to make her. I want her to love me because it is what she wants not because I want her to or she feels that she has to. I want to grow in Christ deeper and stronger as one. As gf/bf then to husband/wife, soul mates, helping each other, partners, and lovers. It's not obessesive! It's love. I love her! " Love is as powerful as death; passion is as strong as death itself. It bursts into flame and burns like a raging fire." (Song of Solomon 8:6-GNB). This love is not even possible without God for God is love (1 John 4:16). Being bf/gf is not even about just being in a relationship or getting to know each other. It is so much more but people have broke the meaning of it. It's about being able to see yourself in the future with the person in God having God as the foundation for He is "the rock of...strength" (Psalms 62:7). It's about love. I mean every word down to the last letter. I'm pouring out my heart but at times it is as if it is not seen or understood. Hours pass by yet the love remains as strong and even growing stronger. I don't want any of this by force or fear. There is just so much I want to do and say but yet time passes and still not all is expressed nor do I think it ever will be. That is what makes it continually grow because it just keeps flowing. It is so beyond any circumstance or negative feelings that are temporal but rather much deeper coming from the depths of the heart. When all mistakes and frustrations are gone I want her to know that I love her and if she does not even realize to what extent to be able see. I just wish she could now but yet these words mean very little without the action which shall follow because without it these words become useless as chasing the wind around in circles. It gets you no where in the end. Can she even see it or do I just not realize she does? I don't know. I just do not know. I love her! I want to always be there for her no matter what. I want to be by her side and her by mine. Living this life as one and accomplishing the task the Lord gives. I want to walk her home.
soap 12 months ago
Hi! What's the plan for your group? CS Lewis has another interesting quote from the Screwtape Letters: Indeed the safest road to Hell is the gradual one- the gentle slope, soft underfoot, without sudden turnings, without milestones, without signposts.”