i'm so sick of raising my siblings i'm so tired. if any of you have seen baby bowers then you know were i'm coming from. nothing in my life is going the way i planned, nothing is going the i thought God was taking me i feel alone in a world of people who are not alone,in a world were other have some one there for them someone who wont judge or let them be judged i know i have friends who care alot about me but there's none who wants to be defend me when it needs to happen and it does not happen at all

look guys a lotta stuff is going really wrong right now 1. my mom is in the hospital 2. i'm loosing one of my favorite teachers next year 3. one of my best friends is leaving the school and not coming back leaving me to fend for my self 4. i'm really scared to see my mom the way she in now it just scares me. what the doctors are saying she has could kill her i'm not ready to raise 2 kids by myself i'm scared i'll screw it up really bad i feel like God does not really care about me at all that hes left me and does not care at all and thats what scares me the most.

why me
why this way
why that way
why did it have to be you

we've done this before
can we do it agian
could there be another chance

there has to be
there you are asking me agian
will you be my girl

you are sweet
you are cute
you make me feel so special

no lies
no hurt
no pain

you've hurt people
and broken hearts
i've hurt poeple
and broken hearts

are we really ment for each other
could it be so
do we have a chance in the world
may be or maybe not
but lets give it a go

i'll be yours
you'll be mine

on the bus today i had a guy i've been trying forever to ask me out asked me out i dated him before and each time we would grow apart i really like him and he really likes me and we want to be together. his name is tyrone and he is really sweet and cute the thing is he's not to goood at rembering things like we are supposed to metting today at the library to see each other but he's not here yet. what do you think he is so worth it isn't he?

ok me and my friends we are going way crazy about school being almost out and we plan to make this summer a great summer and things are gonna be crazy between pool parties a and hanging with my friend and family and going to the beach this is gonna be great but we dont have that much stuff to do you guys suggest for us to do for the rest of the summer it would be really cool to know what you guys think.

ok every one knows yesterday was Easter well at my house Easter is like a war day no fun at all. we got home pretty late from my grandparents and i was reall tierd and i was putting food away mom and her idiot of a boyfriend where fighting so i just did what i was told to put the food away m room mate calls cause she need her purse and she need to talk to me i had just washed my hands and moms boyfriend tryed hand me the phone but my hands where hands still wet he did not want his phone wet so he told to dry my hand which i was trying to do but did not have a towle there was a hand towle on the counter wiht dishes on it he about broke those dishes that where there handed me the towle and then hits me with the book in his hand it really hurt and my mom wanted to beat the crap out of him he also hit her. i so want him out of our lives really bad but don't know how to approch my mom about it what should i do?

staring fear in the face

people say we fear others
but i say we fear each other
we are afraid to be diffrent we are afriad of being the same


some of us run the distance
others run away
you just run away

those who stay and fight
are almost always blown away


we fear each others ideas and beliefs
only cause they do the same

we citisize others because we just do

we all come from different backgrounds
kids from the hood
gang hanger
The smart kids who just want out
and those who change the world

at one time or another
all families have problems
all things can be changed for the better

never let some one tell you can't
you always can

there is only one way to break fear
let fear, fear itself

people see the rich and think they are tyrants

no matter what type of life you have
you will always have better
you will always go far

we make fun of the ones that don't fit in
the geek
the slow
the fat
the goth
that is just like us

no heart
no life
no truth
no honesty
but always fearful

no love
we build up walls
only to run into them
never to care for those who are around you

one day when we are grown
there will be no fear
we will stand up and
stare fear in the face and say
i'm not a fraid anymore
there is no more fear


so what do you think still feelin' my poetry?

this one is called "My Guardian Angel"


Can you hear the voice
a voice so cold
ao full of saddness
so alone
so full of fear

can you hear the voice
a voice so full of love
so warm
but still so alone

you made yourself known
believed in me in whatever I want to be
you let me run
you let me fly
you let me be me

Nanny you left me
I feel cold, alone
I'm afraid
you gave me courage

why did you have to go
it is so dark
turn on the light
make me whole agian

when i see poppy i still look for you
knowing you wont be there

wake me from this bad dream
hold me in your arms
make me feel at home again

I'm loosing everyone who cares for me
i need to know
just why did you leave

I never said goodbye
never told you i'd miss you
you never said i love you to me

if you saw me now you think
i'm some one else
i'm still hurting but im better
Im on my own
Im my own person
I know you watch over us all
You keep us safe

Instead of being my nanny
You are my guardian angel
I love you

So now I can finally say
I may miss you but good bye
My guardian angel


so what do you think this is one of my most commented on it would be nice to here what ya'll think.

ok i have to rigister for classes right and the system at school was down all week and i come today after trying to rigister at all day did not work out i come home tell my mom i have to go to the library and she snapped at for telling the truth that is so wrong i'm doing my best it is so wrong of her to ecpect more from me.